~Stake Conference~

Today we had Stake Conference for our church, Mormon.org.  One of the councilors in the Stake Presidency asked a question in his talk;  How interested do you think the Lord is in your life?  It made me stop and think, here we are several hours later and I am still thinking about this question.  The speaker went on to say, "He is as interested in my life as I let him."  Which the way to allow Him into my life is through prayer.  Some times it is hard to turn our power over to allow others to help.  We think we are better off to handle our problems, our lives alone.  When are we ever better alone?  Why not turn to our Heavenly Father who knows us better then we know ourselves?  Some times this is an easy thing to do, go to the Lord in pray and ask for the help, and other times we think it is faster, easier to do it alone.  After listening to today's conference I am going to set a goal to allow the Lord into my life more, to turn to the Lord and allow his influence to guide me and help me more.  I know this will probably be a life long goal, but it is a goal worth setting.

~Legacy~

What is a legacy?  A legacy is something left to a person by or as if by a will.

  

 People are more important then things, feelings are more important them money, relationships endure forever, leave a legacy of love. 

I often wonder what is my legacy?  I wonder what will my girls remember about me?  What have I taught them worth teaching their children? What is their greatest memory of me?  Then I think about my own mom and all she is to me.  We are now 1000 miles apart which makes me think of her all the more.  I look at my hands and I see my mothers, I hear her council in my mind when I wonder what council I should be giving my own daughters. What about the father?  What is his legacy to his children or in our case the girls?  I have the greatest father, I now have the greatest husband.  I hope our girls look for, "a man who magnifies his priesthood " like their father.  When I was growing up and struggling with people at school, my dad told me, "you don't have to like everyone, but you do have to be civil." I will NEVER forget that. I still hear my dads voice in my head and do my best to be civil and kind even when I really don't want to. I look in my daughters eyes and wonder what does their future hold? I want my girls to remember the good over the bad.  I want them to remember the fun, happy, loving, playful, creative, outgoing, caring, compassionate, helpful mom.  Not the mom who was cranky, tired, cross, or yelling mom.  I know they will remember the good and the bad. I am glad it is up to me to make sure there are more meaningful good days then bad days.  I am grateful for the atonement through Jesus Christ that allows me to repent and be forgiven for my shortcomings. I am glad I have forgiving girls who at this stage in their young lives forgive me and continue to love me.  I pray as they grow and go through the teenage years our relationship stays strong and real.  That our prayers of forgiveness, patience, love, kindness and compassion for each other is heard.  I hope I am living a life where I can leave a legacy of  love.